Well here I am sitting in front of my screen and thinking about stuff to write.It's an irony isn't it? When I have an entire 21 years of life behind me I have to look back and think about what i have to write.
I have spent the last couple of months thinking about who I really am and what I really want to be and am no closer to answering those questions now than when I started out.This has led me to believe that there is no definitive answer to any question.We believe an answer is right because we are told to by people whom we think know the answer.And those people in turn get the answer from some one else.One might argue with me that people might arrive at an answer based on an experience or some for of experiment.While there is no doubt that the experience got out the result,the very fact that it is an individualistic approach implies that it can vary from person to person.My answer to a problem need not match with anyone else.
When someone asks me to explain the reasons for my actions.I have only one answer to give and that is: "I believed I was right!!".Everyone believes they are right.This means for a problem given to 100 people there are 100 right ways of solving it.
But somewhere down the line we all realize that our action need to satisfy not just ourselves but also others around us.This is what makes us the people we are.Our co existence in spite of our differences.We live not just for ourselves but for people around us also.Many people might disagree with this but hear me out fully.
We are what we are today not just because of ourselves but also because of everyone else around us.Would I have been the same person today if not for my Parents,Friends and people I have met and interacted with??!!No
So then what gives me the right to say that only I influence my own decisions.Hence every decision I make is directly or indirectly influenced by the individuals around me.And I am thankful that it is so.
The final decision is surely with the individual the world and people around him surely influence him.
Coming back to my confusion though i am no closer to finding my problems i have realised that there is no point in worrying too much.What happens is what i have always wanted to happen.And that fact alone is such a comfort to me.
Cheers.
